Floccinaucinihilipilification:
Why Rajkumari?
I had seen thousands of homeless, desperate women dressed in smelly rags
So often in a worse state than Looli
Is it because they all had their hands out and Looli didn’t?
They demanded everything and anything as if it was their right
But Looli demanded and expected nothing
Her only demand was to be left alone and to have peace
Is that what made me go after her?
There was a nothing-ness about her
We could gain nothing from her and she wanted nothing from us.
It was there that the two arrows met
She found love and so did we
All selfishness left
We lived only to see her safe and at peace
Away from danger and evil people.
Suddenly our lives and entertainment seemed shallow and unimportant
Nothing was more important than to see improvement in her
Signs of hope, a new smile, to hear a clear word from her
Sad, stiff mouth.
O God! How many more like Looli?
I want to know but I don’t want to know
I want to see but I don’t want to see
At all! At all!
To see would demand total unselfishness
A total surrender of our whole family.
If we want to see justice done
It would mean spending our lives on behalf of the poor
So, don’t show us everyone Lord,
Just show us OUR Loolis.
The ones you want US to love
The ones you will work it out for.
And thanks for loving me in my state of nothingness,
Just as you love Princess Looli.
PS.
The loveliest, longest word in the dictionary was taught to me by my dad when I was 8: I mastered it when I was 9. More than the challenge of the word itself, I was fascinated that such a long word could mean nothing…
Flocci-nauci-nihili-pili-fication: Definition: The action or habit of estimating something as worthless. A state of nothingness.